As a child I never asked for anything for fear of being told no, and if I did ask for anything I made sure I had already done something to earn it or at that the very least I made sure my mum was distracted when I asked.
As well or not as this worked for me then, it has become somewhat of a problem now, where I’ve found myself using these conditions with God. Until I do something (read my bible, pray, go to church) for Him, He won’t do anything for me. Mistake number one is me thinking that I am reading MY bible for Him to give me things.
First of all our minds and hearts should not be focused on the things of this world; secondly He says in His word ask and it shall be given to you (Matthew 7:7). So even though He doesn’t want us to be focused on earthly thing, He still gives us the freedom to ask for whatever we want. We should therefore be assured that His freedom for us to ask and His wisdom to grant is a display of His love for us; knowing that what we are asking for will not harm us but bring us happiness.
“So if you are suffering in a manner that pleases God, keep on doing what is right, and trust your lives to the God who created you, for he will never fail you.” 1 Peter 4:19 (NLT)
For a while now I’ve been trying to focus on reading my bible daily, it had been going well for a time until recently. I’ve been having a hard time reading my bible and I felt so guilty about it, which just made me not want to read more.
But I’ve understood that not reading your bible doesn’t mean you automatically go back to square one, it’s really more like putting your relationship on pause, though it may begin to decline backwards it doesn’t automatically jump back down to square one. The point of all of this is to say even if you feel guilty go to God. Especially when you need something; don’t let the fact that you’ve not done something hinder you from asking, because whether He gives you something or not has no direct relation to what you’ve done; it is in His mercy that He gives us all that we ask for.
Remember, there is a difference between condemnation and conviction. Condemnation says you’re guilty or you’re not good enough; it is they lie of the enemy to cause separation between you and God. Conviction says I know what I’m doing isn’t right how can I make it better; it is the Spirit of God at work in you. Let the Spirit of God continually work in you.
“There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.” Romans 8:1 (NKJV)